I want you. :(

Okay, this post is going to be pathetic. It's about boys. I feel like I need to get it out, and this is a good forum. I want you. I know you don't want me. I know we're through. I know we fought. I know you hurt and used me. I know I should hate you. I know my family and friends do. I know I should be done. I know I should want to never see you again. But that doesn't change the fact that I want you. That I think about you, that I miss you. That I wonder what it would be like if you were still in my life. That I walk around with a sick feeling in my stomach because I can't call you or text you anymore. There, it's out in the open. I want you, but I can't have you anymore. It's just so hard to say goodbye.